and I am sitting in my humble abode considering the effect that this dreary weather tends to have on me. It is amazing to think about how connected to nature we really are. When it is a beautiful sunny day with the rays reflecting off my sunglasses I can not help but feel like I am shining. On the contrary, when the sky resembles a never ending grey mass freckled with spots of fog that open to unleash giant wet drops on us, I feel as though my brain itself is fogging and somberness seeps into my bones. I can attempt to become cheery with upbeat music and happy thoughts but no matter how hard I try my eyes wander to the nearest window or my ears take in the pitter patter noise and I am once again filled with sadness. It is not your typical sadness though. It is more of a reflective or contemplative state. Rainy days may have been created for thinking. You can not be outside experiencing so instead you must sit inside and think. Thinking is not usually one of my voluntary pass times. My capacity for thought usually leads me down a road I do not enjoy taking. It quickly turns into a journey of questions that are enough to make any normal person sick. Rachy recently wrote in her blog that she often has a problem thinking of anything at all. I have to chuckle when I consider this because usually I have an excess of thoughts and thoughts that I'd rather not have bouncing around my mind. Today I have been thinking in particularly about happiness, others' happiness as well as my own. I would consider myself a pretty happy person for the most part. Every once in a while I will see people who really stand out and their happiness makes me feel like I am missing out on something or that my happiness could be even better. For example, at work there is an older lady that always meets up with her husband for dinner in the cafe while on her break. Usually I pay no mind to them but last night they came up to buy something and the lady was smiling and laughing so much that you could not help but notice. She was laughing at something her husband had said and the happiness made her entire face light up. They were incredibly pleasant and then when they turned to walk away the husband grabbed her hand and they walked out laughing with each other. It was a very small moment, couldn't have been longer than two minutes total, yet for some reason it stayed in my brain the rest of the evening. While thinking over it today I have found that I just want to be that kind of happy. The kind that makes other people happy just from a two minute interaction with you.
Winter is quickly approaching and I need to get new tires. I am looking forward to hot chocolate and marshmallows.
The only way to deal with a rainy day is either a good novel or a couple great friends.
Since I have a couple great friends waiting for me I will stop this thinking nonsense and say goodbye for now.
Don't forget your
